this tag is currently going round on you tube but I thought I would just do it on here... it probably wont be as good but oh well!

where is ur cell?
 downstairs
where is ur significant other? home

haircolor?
 blonde
mother?
 Northern Ireland
father? Hospital

fav thing? Fred.

last dream?
 odd
dream or goal?
 midwifery!
room ur in?
 bedroom
hobby? beautification

fear?
 loss
where do you want to be in 6 years? midwife. or pregnant :)

where were you last night?
 work
What ur not? positive

one of ur wishlist items?
 money
where u grew up?
 LE3
last thing u did?
 ate
what are you wearing? uniform

tv?
 off
pet? old

computer?
 home-made
mood?
 reasonable
missing someone? yes

car? doesn't work

something ur not wearing? socks

fav store?
 boots
summer?
 really?
love someone? YES

fav colour? pink

last time u laughed?
 yesterday
last time u cried? everyday.

wearing said uniform! off to work I go!

k that's it, pretty boring but it passed some time! ciao xx

I managed to get a picture of the C2000 polish I got the other day, that is pretty true to life.

(Fruit Salad)
I know the quality isn't that great, but you get an idea of the colour. I love this polish, it dried really quickly and I only needed 2 coats and for £1.79, how can you lose?

this is what I looked like when I weighed 10st3. and it was this picture that made me realise how much I'd gained recently.




I used to think I was still actually fat when I took these...? maybe I was...


I don't think I can post one of me now yet. but I might do...

you may or may not be aware about my weight loss 'journey' I have mentioned it before.


well anyway. over the last few years, I have been on a mission to loose weight. which I did do successfully ( I initially lost around 4and a half stones altogether) I'm going to be honest, with my self and you. (if anyone actually reads this) because it seems to be a downfall of mine - denial.

I don't want to ramble too much about this because it will become very long winded and boring. I was doing really well and had reached a pretty healthy weight for my height (5'9") my lowest weight was about 10 stone 2 pounds. for so many women their are ruled by numbers, and statistics and loosing a certain amount by a certain time and if it doesn't happen it is the end of the world. I know because I was one of those people that let my obsession with reaching a certain weight and thinking I would be happy when I got there that it all spiralled out of control. I lost all my will power because when I reached 10 stone 2, I just could not loose any more, no matter what I did. things started to go down hill from there. I used to go to a rosemary conley class to get weighed and exercise, but I think because i just wasnt seeing the numbers go down, i didn see the point in going. this is where my 'problems' started I think. basically for the past 6 months I've rarely exercised (which I was doing 4-5 times week before) and my eating has been terrible. now I love my food, and I've loved eating some of the things I didnt for a long time, but something had to give. I knew I was gaining weight, I knew it would get out of hand if i didnt get back 'on it' but I just could not summon the will power or motivation to stop myself. don't get me wrong I haven't gained a huge amount. well... I don't think its a massive amount - there we go with the denial. I know I've gained and now I know I need to loose it again.

I was looking through my pictures on my computer last week, when I stumbled across some body shots I'd taken at my lowest weight. I'm not sure why but something clicked, it was strange because as soon as I saw them it was like someone had shot me with motivation. When I was loosing weight before I had the most incredible amount of will power, and i really worked hard at loosing weight. So I know I can do it again.

so, here's the thing. I want to get to 10 stone, by the 2nd of September. that gives me, around 2 months to lose 1stone 4pounds.(do the maths if you want to know my weight now)

which I think is very achievable. I'm not going to be silly and starve myself, I know exactly what to do. exercise. now for me, exercise DVDs have been a godsend, for my lifesyle they suit me perfectly. I could do it whenever I want and I really enjoy them. most of them are by rosemary conley, and ive had really good results. so this is my main POA. as well as watching what I eat, and basically cutting out the crap and eating better meals. I don't believe in diets. they do not work. theres one simple rule you have to follow if you want to loose weight and that is to burn more, eat less! that doesnt mean starving youself, you can survive on a lot less food that you think you can. watch your sat fats, and just get of your arse and exercise! ;) I'm no expert but this is how i managed it the first time round. and its how i'll manage it again!

I've set myself some deadlines, but I'm not going to loose sleep over it if i dont loose a certain amount by a certain time. I think the key is to just go with it, enjoy the journey and dont start to resent it. its an amazing feeling of pride and control when you loose weight.

basically, I aim to loose around half a stone every 3 weeks, so an average lose of about 2.5 pounds a week. I'll be weighing myself every Monday so I might start doing a weightloss update blogpost.

so. I weighed myself last Wednesday and I weighed 11.7 pounds. But my official starting weight is 11.4 pounds as of this morning (5/7/20)

so there we go no more lying to myself, that is what I weigh. I care very little about what anyone else thinks about how much I weigh. this is for me.

thank you for reading. I will be doing other posts on my weight loss if anyone is interested. (pictures, food, exercise etc)

xxciao

Hi,
I had to pop into town earlier, and for once it was actually my boyfriend that needed to go to boots, but I couldn't leave empty handed now... so I went over to the Barry M stand after remembering a notd I'd seen using the BM polish in Berry Ice Cream, I'm quite a fan of the lilac shades and was sure I didn't have one like this already ;). ppft. anyway. they are on offer at the moment, 2 for £5, so obviously I had to get two right! I actually went for a shade that I deffinatly do not have already which is, mushroom. now, I'm not sure about this colour yet. it just doesn't seem like a shade you would wear on your nails? its a nice colour im just not sure about it on my nails anyway. it seems alot darker on the nail as well. ANYWAY. I'm loving the berry shade. alot.




I'm going though a nail growing stage, for along time I kept them really short and un-manicured, purely because I was at college and I couldn't wear polish for work so it seemed pointless. but now im off college, I can start looking after them again and wearing all my nice colours again. yay. I use Sally Hansen nailgrowth miracle, which I swear by. This is seriously an amazing product. I've notice an increase in price recently though, it used to be around £5 but now its near enough £8-9 so its pretty pricey but I would deffinatly pay full price just because I know I will get results. having said that I was just having a loot on ebay and found some on buy it now for £1.50 each so I bought two! including p&p it cost £6 for two bottles so im pretty pleased with that. I will do a more detailed review if anyone is interested.

ciaoxx