I'm not sure about writing this post, I hate to come across as miserable but I’m just not feeling myself at the moment. I need to just get it out of my system. I’m not expecting anyone who reads this to find it interesting so just as a little disclaimer, a pre-warning this will be a miserable ranty post. :)
To be honest I’m not even sure where this is all coming from, I wouldn’t go as far as to say imp depressed but I just feel miserable and unhappy most of the time recently. I love my life and all the people in it and nothing majorly devastating has happened to me recently but I just can't seem to shake it off you know? Whether it’s the weather or just winter in general I’m not sure.
I’m finding it difficult at college, not the work load I really enjoy what we do its just, some of the people in my class, on the whole they are a nice bunch and I do have a few friends who I hang out with but, even those I feel don’t like me very much, or maybe not that they don’t like me I just don’t seem to click with anyone. I’ve never found it easy to make friends, and it’s always takes me quite a while to be myself around people, I feel like everything I say sounds stupid, or just makes me look weird you know? thing is I know half the time if I was just able to be myself I would be fine, I don’t think I’m any different from anyone else, I wish I had the confidence and self belief to not be afraid, to not hold back.
That’s something I just need to deal with and get over isn’t it?
Other things have happened at college to that have just pissed me off. But enough about that.
Another thing I’m having difficulty with at the moment is my weight. I've been on this journey for so long now, and I’m still not really happy with myself, or how much I weigh. I know I’ve done well, and I can defiantly see a massive difference now but it still just doesn’t seem enough you know? I've lost just fewer than 4 and a half stones so yeah, quite a lot. You’d think by now I’d be satisfied. I thought I would be. And I bloody well should be proud of myself. I think I concentrate too much on numbers rather than how I feel and how my clothes look, I need to get over what it says on the scales. it’s just really bugging me that I can’t seem to lose these last few pounds, It used to be so easy to shift 3 pounds I could do that in a week but I just can’t seem to be able to. Admittedly, I have slipped up and I haven’t been as religious with my fitness and diet as I could have been recently, I think I need to shake it up a bit, try something new. Oddly though even thought I haven’t lost any weight my clothes still seem to be getting looser? The jeans I bought about a month ago were quite tight, and my buying them was quite ambitious of me but now they seem to fit, and are even a little loose?
I wish I could word my thoughts more eloquently, this just sounds like a massive ramble. Oh well. I'll get overmy self soon I promise :) if you got this far then well done!
its quite brief but oh well.
I bought this on a whim really, I'm usually quite sceptical about cheaper brands, not that im some form of 'snob' (its not as thought i can afford high end anyway) but when it comes to my face I have to be quite careful, I can get quite bad breakouts and suffer from blocked pores, I also have really red cheeks. anyway, back to the point... I bought this because I was just perusing superdrug in the hope of finding a foundation. when this originally came out (a few months ago) it was on offer with £2 off which made it around £3, I was in a rush and thought, well even if its crap I haven't lost much. as it happens it turned out to be pretty good, I remember the first time I applied it and just being amazed at how good it looked, my skin actually looked quite flawless, it didnt just sit in my pores, it blended in really nicely and the color match was really good. now this is where I should probably post some pictures, however Im rubbish. I wasnt planning on doing this review but Im bored and my BF is sat playing on COD6
this is the little crap bit I was goind to post on boots.com but oh well. ha it sounds quite cheesy.
This is the only foundation I have ever re-purchased! I've tried countless brands and formulations in the past but this is the only one that i've really liked and thought was good. foundations dont usually sit well on my skin as its quite oily and it usually shifts throughout the day but this one has reasonably good staying power, and for someone with less oily skin it would be even better. the color range is good too, I usually have to get the lightest shade but I match really well with 'Biscuit' I am deffinatly going to keep on buying this foundation and at this price how can you go wrong?
I will actually post a few pictures of this me wearing (I may even include the dreaded 'before' picture too) this foundation at a later date just because i love it, but its 11.30pm at the minute.
anyway, Im going to bed now. goodnight lyx
thank you for reading. I'll be back soon ly
anyway.
if anyone has any ideas for my giveaway, then please share.
I'm planning on doing a mega post showing you what I get up to on my course but that may have to be next week sometime when I return to my BFs so I can use his computer!
I'm really going to try and post more often but obviously, with the current computer situation this will be limited to when I'm here.
anyway, for now that is all. goodbye ly x
1.What time did you do your makeup today? well the first time I applied was 8.15am to go to college, but it was very simple so I will do this about the 2nd time which was around 1.45 after doing my workout dvd (and showering obvs)
2. What’s the least expensive beauty item you used? a 17 eyeshadow called Vodence it was a limited edition freebie!
3. What was the biggest problem you needed to correct? redness, open pores (cheeks)
4. Did you apply false eyelashes? no, I don't tend to wear lashes I wear glasses and it just doesnt happen
5. Did you do anything while applying make-up? I had the T.V on, watching Ideal world. ;) cool
6. Biggest make-up mishap today? after doing my liner, I accidently smudge a whole load of it across my face :/
7. Did you have a makeup inspiration in mind? not really, I was just going to wear mascara and a bit of foundation but, I thought i'd better make a bit more of an effort ha
8. What was the most time-consuming part of your makeup routine? probably applying the mascara.
9. What part of your routine is the most fun? Probably eyes, Ijust think its where you can really be more creative, although I do like doing a bit of contouring and blusher too.
10. What part of your make-up makes the biggest difference in the way you look? either foundation or eyemakeup my skin is reasonably clear i just suffer from a lot of reddness and uneven pigmentation so, just to have a nice even tone makes a difference! but then my eyes just look terrible without anything on so.
11. Neutral or colorful eyeshdaow? Neutral
12. Liquid or mineral foundation? liquid, i just think it gives better coverage.
13. Do you do your hair or make-up first? tbh I alternate everytime it just depends on whether my hair is wet/dry etc generally its makeup first though.
14. Did you pack a make-up bag to take with you for the day?yes, I'm staying at my bfs house tonight
15. When did you finish your make-up? 2pm?
so ther we have it. some quite rambly answers, but oh well. thank you for reading ly
