So after telling myself I wouldn't spend any money before I go to London, I did go shopping today. In fairness I didn't buy very much at all so don't really feel that bad!

We only have one sally's in Leicester...and it happens to be in quite a rough shopping centre, but its there none the less. They still have the CHI sale on in there which surprised me because its been on for ages. Originally I went in to get a nigger silk infusion (the one I have is a sample size and will run out soon!) But they didn't have any left :( I wasn't going to leave empty handed, that's not my style. After looking round for ages trying to find something I went back to the CHI stand and picked up the 'Curl Preserve System' leave in conditioner, which is a bit like the Keratin mist but is meant to de-tangle your curls and make them nice etc...and that was half price. £4something. Yay. I'll do a proper review on that at some point.

Then I went to boots, I had a £5 voucher for no.7 that needed to be used by today so just picked up a brow pencil in blonde. Ironically, I have really rubbish eyebrows and are practically non existent. I want them to be thicker! how do you make your eyebrows grow!? haha.

Then I just got a new eyelash curler(by Red? £5.79! quite expensive for me...ah well) and a tony and guy rapid response leave in conditioner in there travel size, which, might I add is actually quite big, it lasts me a long time anyway. I love it. Its amazing. I'll do a review on that one day too.

...and that was it really. I wasn't in the mood to shop, but I can't go into a shop and not buy anything.





oh one more thing, I keep hearing about Revlon's Colourstay Foundation so obviously I need to buy it. I've just bought one from Ebay, in Ivory so I'll give my opinions on that when it arrives :)


That's pretty much it for now. I might get round to doing an EOTD tomorrow.

So Thursdays are pretty boring for me, I don't have college during the day but I have work in the evening (I work at my local Co-Op). Today I applied my fake tan again; the first time I applied it was last Thursday, I’m thinking this may become some kind of routine. ANYWAY
Basically here is my FOTD:
I’m keeping it pretty neutral for work, you may think it looks quite similar to some of the other looks I’ve posted but it is different. The colour is a bit more bronzed in the flesh as well.







and
without flash



this is what I used







Lots of pictures!

After reading/watching so many reviews about Nail Envy, I decided it was about time I caved in and bought some.
Now being a student the price tag does seem a little on the expensive side, this was one of the reasons I delayed purchasing it. I didn’t want to spend that much money on something that I wasn’t sure would work for me.
I only got this yesterday, so I realise that this ‘review’ might be a little premature, but I feel like I can at least review it on first impressions.



I got the Matte Nail Envy from EBay and it cost around £7, I actually thought I was buying the Original one but it was actually the Matte. Anyway, so I took off my nail polish last night ad applied two coats of it and went t bed. It dried so quickly, literally by the time I’d finished one hand the first few nails had dried. My nails often get quite soft and break off, which is annoying, so I’ve been looking for a nail strengthener for a while. I purchased the Sally Hansen Diamond Strength a while ago and I have to say that does work pretty well, but being me I can’t just stick to one product I have to try new things all the time. ANWAY, I digress, so I woke up this morning and my nails feel so much stronger already! I’m not even exaggerating. The nail on my index finger was starting to weaken a few days ago but it seems to have strengthened miraculously over night. I applied some more this morning, and because its matte It doesn’t really show up so I just keep on applying it, I’m addicted. Seriously, this may seem a little over the top but< it literally worked over night, its 15mls which is HUGE so I know this is going to last a long time. I just can’t get over it. hahaha, ok I’ll calm down now.

I'm quite bored at the moment, so decided to create a tag, the title is pretty self explanetory so I’m just going to delve right in:

1. Steve Carell - I don't know why, I just think he's hot.



2. John Locke (aka Terry O'Quinn)Again I'm not sure why, I think its the boldness :S


and even more strangely

3. James May



So there we go, a few of my 'weird' crushes! if you're feeling brave then I tag you! :D

Just a few pictures...
I don't have very long/thick lashes at all, so this mascara for me is great.

your really getting your moneys worth today, I'm posting like a good'un!

so this a short tag by Happy1234

My 3 reasons are -

1. I'm camera shy, I toyed with the idea of posting videos for a while, I made quite a few videos but always chicken out of posting them, so this is a great way of being part of the 'beauty community'. it's also more convenient than having to do the whole 'video' route of filming/editing/uploading.

2. I love reading other blogs, some of my favourite bloggers are in the 'blog list'. like youtube its another great way of learning new tip and tricks, and I'm nosey so I love hauls and whats in my bag blogs!

3. So I can share my own tips/looks etc, I'm in no way a professional (yet) but I love sharing my own opinions and having people comment on them :)

I tag anyone that wants to do it!

OK, this is the claire's palette I mentioned in my last post, I picked it up the other day for £4.50, the Quality is surprisingly good and the colours are really pigmented.

(I'm really getting into the whole abbreviation lark today, It would be a FOTD but I forgot to take a picture of my face afterwards)

Eye of the Day:







Products:
UDPP
Base colour - UD cream shadow in Foxy
Inner corner - Hard Candy E/S in Butterscotch
Middle - 'golden brown' from 'Neutral' Claire’s palette
Outer corner - ‘soft burgundy' from 'Neutral' Claire’s palette
Crease - MAC E/S in Beauty Marked
Highlight - Hard Candy E/S in Butterscotch
Mascara - false lash effect - Max Factor (The brush on this mascara is huge. It’s a really good mascara but I keep poking my eyes with the brush! And I haven't quite managed to negotiate a method to stop me catching it on my lids either)

Nail Polish of The Week: Gosh Nail Lacquer 543 Pink Rose

apologies for the shocking quality of this photo the colour is pretty accurate though, strangely I can't find it on their website so couldn't get a picture from there, so its better than nothing. I believe you can still buy these in Superdrug.

its late, I'm bored so I'm going to do this tag...

1. Where is your cell phone? bedside table
2. Where is your significant other? at his house :(
3. Your hair color? Brownish
4. Your mother? strong
5. Your father? always there
6. Your favorite thing? Love
7. Your dream last night? ...I was married to James May.. :S
8. Your dream/goal? to make some babies :)
9. The room you're in? bedroom
10. Your hobby? acting
11. Your fear? loss
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? London!
13. Where were you last night? Fred's house
14. What you're not? boring
15. One of your wish-list items? many things...
16. Where you grew up? Leicester
17. The last thing you did? bought stuff on ebay
18. What are you wearing? jimjams
19. Your TV? er? what about it?
20. Your pet? Dog - Lady
21. Your computer? don't talk to me about my computer, its a pile of crap
22. Your mood? ...? duno just tired really
23. Missing someone? Yes
24. Your car? I don't drive
25. Something you're not wearing? underwear...no just kidding err...wellingtons?
26. Favorite store? Boots :D
27. Your summer? boring.
28. Love someone? Yes.
29. Your favorite color? Pink
30. When is the last time you laughed? Today - at work. it was hilarious...
31. Last time you cried? err yesturday
32. Are you a bitch? I can be...not a massive one but sometimes...
33. Favorite Position? err
34. Favorite Past Time? Reading, Singing along to my ipod
35. Are you a hater or a lover? Lover
37. Are you genuine or fake? Genuine
38. Any Vices? ;)
39. Pro Plastic or Natural? Natural
40. Dream Job? MUA

so today I applied a fake tan.
it looks OK so far and seems to be developing quite nicely and evenly.
its the st tropez gift set I told you about in an earlier post. I exfoliated using the S.T exfoliator. (which is really nice btw - quite abrasive but leaves the skin feeling so smooth then sprayed on the 'instant tan' which again I'm impressed with.this is my first time applying a fake tan and I'm surprised at how easy it has been. the colour is really nice so far, I don't look like David Dickinson yet anyway...
I think I'll give the 'tan intensifier' a try tomorrow as well, once the actual colour has developed properly.

This is going to be a different kind of blog, today I feel like telling you a little bit about myself and my life.
I'm not really bothered if you find this boring or whatever because in a way this is going to be more for myself. You’ll understand as I go on.

So, I'm 18, I live with my dad and my brother (he's at uni in London). My Mum lives in Northern Ireland with her new partner. She moved there about 4/5 months ago. I'll not go into that though.
I have two more brothers who don't live at home anymore. One (Ben) Lives in Leicester with his girlfriend and their daughter Emily. And the other one (matt) lives with his girlfriend in Chelmsford. My brothers are all older than me.
I have a WONDERFUL boyfriend who I love an incredible amount. No one will understand how much of an impact he has had on my life. I Will Love him forever, I know what your thinking...and I know it might be a little bit over the top but this is just how I feel before I met Fred I would never have thought I would fall so deeply in love with anyone or that anyone would love me back the way I know he does. I will be with Fred until I die. I just know it. I don't question it.
OK moving on.
Whoa that was a bit deep anyway.

So like I was saying, my family are all over the place which at times is quite difficult but its life and I deal with it.

Around 2006 I was doing my GCSE’s, my parents had just split up and life started to feel, well a bit shit. I got through my exams, just and started to think about what I wanted to do next.
After I left school, I took the route I thought I should, ALEVELS. I got into a good college, but something was still wrong. I like many teenagers began to notice things about myself i didn’t like. For me it was pretty much everything and it all seemed to happen at once. I stopped going out with my friends as much because I felt so inadequate next to them it felt like every time I went somewhere I was constantly worried about how I looked and how much worse I looked than everyone else. My friends didn’t really see what was happening and I gradually became replaced, we all started college, and they were making new friends. I wasn’t needed anymore. I still had other friends who I then started to hang out with but, I still found it quite difficult to understand why I wasn’t friends with the people I had been best friends with for the last 5 years.
So college was quite tough to begin with, the whole social aspect, meeting new people, trying to make new friends, I hadn’t had to make new friends for a while; it was quite a difficult time.
A few weeks in I started to settle into the routine I had a few new friends and things just started to ease up on me. I still loathed myself but I told myself wasn’t really that bothered by it because it wasn’t like I was trying to impress anyone right? Who did I need to make an effort for, I had resorted to the fact that no boy would ever like me so what was the point in worrying about who I looked anymore.

One day I was on my way home, walking to the bus stop and a friend who I had drama with was there, with a boy. We all got on the bus and started talking. I later discovered that the boys name was Fred and Natalie had added him on MySpace. This was fine. We all went into town, had a starbucks and then went our separate ways. Now this bit will defiantly sound cheesy, but from the moment I met Fred, I was at ease with him, I could be myself. He made me laugh, and I knew that I wanted to get to know him better.
This is when my life was turned upside down. We started to see more of each other, basically I started stalking him. Ha-ha, not literally but I was a bit like...’HI FRED LETS GO STARBUCKS’
We started to become really good friends on a different level than I thought we could, we just clicked. We are so alike in personality sometimes it’s scary, but then other aspects of our lives are completely different.
So to cut a long story short...I fell completely in love with him, and its weird but I think I kind of knew that I would from the moment we met.
So we’ve been together for just over 2 years now which doesn’t sound like a very long time, but honestly I feel like I’ve known him for a lot longer!
I know I keep going on about Fred a lot in this little bio but it’s because he’s made such an impact on my life its unreal.
Ok back to the story, basically I fell in love, life was fantastic and College seemed so unnecessary why would I possibly need an education after meeting the love of my life?
I failed most of my as levels. Three U’s in fact, but I did get an A in drama. To be honest, I expected to get really bad grades, but to fail so miserably really was quite tough to grasp at first. I knew very early on that I had made the wrong decision in doing a levels in the first place. This wasn’t what I wanted to do; it was what I thought everyone expected me to do. I know that some people think the only way to get any kind of decent career is to do a levels go to university and sit exams for the next 10 years, but for me, I didn’t even know what I wanted to do with my life.
So after failing I needed to find a different route. I needed something that would work for me this time, something that I would actually want to get out of bed for everyday.
I was very sceptical when I applied to do a National Diploma in performing arts. I was so concerned about what other people would think about. This is one of the main drawbacks in my life. My fear of other peoples opinion. It’s insane how much time I spend worrying about it, whatever the situation.
I started the course and at first the learning style was so difficult to get into I considered dropping out there and then. I was so used to having it drilled into me that the only way I’m going to succeed in life is by doing exams and getting the best grades in the world. This new way of doing was scary and confusing and exciting. I quickly got into the swing of things, made some fabulous friends and life again was gooood.
There was still this underlying self loathing holding me back though, at first I found it so difficult to let go and really have some fun with the course, but gradually over the year I started to come out of myself more. I can’t begin to explain how much confidence I have gained and how much I appreciate myself more just for being on this course, so many people ask me why I wanted to do a performing arts course if I didn’t want to be an actor...what’s the point? There is so much more to it than that, I can’t go into it right now, I’d be here forever, this is an ESSAY as it is. Just accept that this was one of the best decisions of my life. There have been some drawbacks on the way and it hasn’t all been fantastic but I wouldn’t change any of it. My advice for anyone that has the slightest bit of self doubt or feelings of worthlessness or whatever please enrol on to some kind of acting/theatrical class. It could be anything a local theatre company, a night class, just does it
So the whole ‘self loathing’ thing started to get on top of me a little bit, I had something inside of me wanted to burst out and explode but something, this niggling feeling holding me back, its so frustrating know that you can be so much more and do so much, but still feel trapped. I knew exactly what needed to be done. I have always known that ill never be able to really live and experience things in the way should be unless I was happy deep inside of myself with the way that I looked. Yes it comes back to that old chestnut. My course unlocked this confidence and desire that was still trapped deep inside of me. I was overweight, now don’t get me wrong, I knew I wasn’t obese or anything but I was still FAT, I knew something needed to be done, it was finding the motivation, to really go for it and lose weight. One Sunday night I was lying in bed, crying because I hated my body. So many times I had tried living by the philosophy that I should love myself for who I am and love my curves, but deep down I knew this wasn’t who I was supposed to be, that I was never going to learn to love this body. I made a promise to myself for the last time, this was it, and I am going to lose weight this time. No going back.
The next day I sat in the car with Fred and told him, exactly what I had told myself the night before. He turned to look at me and said, that he has been thinking the exact same thing last night. Minus the crying part. It was the strangest car journey. So we both agreed to work together. To get this sorted out once and for all. It was such a relief to have ‘someone on my side’ and doing it with me, and who better than the love of my life. I was so motivated by this point and happy.
It’s been about 2 and half months so far. I’ve lost just under 2 stone, I’ve still got a way to go but I know that I’m going to get there this time.
So that’s a little bit of my story.

Just thought I'd show you a look I've been wearing recently...





It's really easy...
outer corner/crease: mac Beauty Marked e/s
inner corner: Too Faced Couture Eye Shadow Luxe in Glamazon

soft liner pen by 17 in soft jet
loreal Voluminous mascara

and thats it.

I nipped into boots earlier to pick up a meal deal...when I noticed the sale section had 75% off, so I had a look around...I saw a St. Tropez 'The ultimate golden body collection' gift set for £11 instead of £45. :|



Which in my opinion is a good deal at £45 let alone £11..
So I bought it...

link here

I've never used St. Tropez before so I'm pretty glad I've managed to get this at such a low price...

lets have a look shall we...

note: this won't be very interesting...






OK. lets do it...

1. pencil case/college work - do you need to me explain those?
2. Jazz shoes - for college
3. makeup bag - with...makeup in it!
4. camera/case - I don't usually carry this around with me but i put it in my bag the other day for some reason
5. gloves - I live in England...its COLD
6. ipod - for when i want a quick boogie...I love listning to disco when i take my dogs for a walk...funtimes
7. iphone - LOVE IT
8. college card on a lanyard... we have to wear these around college for some reason...
9. pro plus - for when I go to work
10. curious - love that scent
11. vaseline rosy lips - just because
12. palmers lip butter - because it smells like heaven
13. my purse - for obvious reasons...that me and my mum...
14. a book - bitter sweets, its good you should read it if you like reading books
15. keys - so i can get into my house
16. two pairs of headphones - I lost a rubber bit from my really good headphones so had to take my other headphones out...does anyone know where I can buy a rubber bit? i realise 'rubber bit' isn't very descriptive...but I really dont know how else to describe it..
17. vaseline hand cream - smells nice
18. sample of nivea 'smooth sensation' - randomly I got this from the cinema
19. a mirror in a pink case - so I can look at my face
20. adidas body spray - incase I start to smell
21. a lighter - I don't smoke but carry a lighter for some reason...
22. small red case that came with my MAC brush set - to put stuff in...
23. a body shop lipgloss - its sparkly YAY



GOODFLY

so I'm very bored...what else do you do when your bored apart from cut your fringe?
hmmm

anyway..
pictoral evidence to follow...


^excuse the pout..

and after...



hmm
as you can see, I'm not very goot at this hairdressing lark...

>
so its been a while...I don't have an excuse for not posting anything tbh, but...I'm ready to give this blog malarkey another shot.
having said that...now I don't know what to write...

ok
I'll start with a few things I LOVE atm:

1. my new bag from asos.com
£12 in the sales

(it's huge! I might do a W.I.M.B post when ive managed to fill it with more crap)

2. Boujoirs 10 hour sleep effect foundation

I love this foundation atm, great coverage, it doesn't accentuate my pores and lasts for a long time. its really light so I hardly notice that I'm wearing it. (I may do a more detailed review of this)

3. Botanics Purifying Face Scrub for Normal or Oily Skin


this was a chance buy, I got it as part of a set...it came with a few other things like a moisturiser and a body wash among other things in a big case, the first time i used it i noticed a massive difference, my skin was really smooth, and where other products aimed at oily skin would often dry out my skin this one didnt. it's made from all natural ingredients which has made a massive difference to me anyway

4. Curious - Britney Speares

This is a recurrent purchase for me. I just love this scent, it is described as 'exhilarating white floral accented with Louisiana Magnolia and wrapped in the sensuality of vanilla-infused musk'
I get so may compliments when I wear it and people are always surprised when i tell them what im wearing.

5. MAC nail lacquer - Steamy

I love the colour of this lacquer. simply gorgeous. I bought Shirelle nail lacquer by mac not so long ago and immediately fell in love, the colour, the quality everything was just perfect for me. I was having a look on e bay for some nail polishes and stumbled across Steamy going for about £2...well I had to didn't it. I'm wearing it now and loving it. its bright and fun!

now, some things I'm not loving so much,
1. I only got paid last week and seem to have no money left...AND I cant work out how ive spent
it all.
2. The weather...WHAT?! Its freezing. >:\
3. That stupid IDIOT that dressed up as Madeline Mccann for a fancy dress party. WHY? what the hell was going through his mind...? at what point did he think that would be appropriate? dick
4. The fact that both side of my make up mirror have broken...and i have no money to by a new one
5. err...can't think of a fifth...

so yeh...that is all

GOODFLY